I am so so so so sad right nowwww~I am just sitting here crying.
I had so much planned today. I was going to work on layouts and prizes and emails while letting the boys do some art and playdough and run around out back (with me watching of course). I have been kind of irritable lately with them. I have been kind of cranky that I am not getting enough Me time. Brandon is has been working around the clock since like the beginning of Feb. We had our vacation...but still kind of no me time, kwim. And then with the sickies and them missing school and then taking care of mom etc etc...just been feeling a little tired and cranky. When I was cleaning up from dinner last night..the boys were screaming and getting into a tiff. They kept coming to me tattling. I had had it. I raised my voice and told them to go on....and sent them to their room. Then I was sitting there on the couch takign a breather and Chase wanted to play pirates with me again. I sighed and said...not now son...and he was so sad.
So then I get up today and clean some more and get them fed...and they want to play with me and I say...let momma just check my emails...and I go to the forum at DST and see this post! OMGGGGG....how heartbreakingly sad. Made me do a reality check. How freaking lucky am I?!?!?! How wonderful are my children and htey actually WANT to play with me. Cranky mean irritable meeeee. How I take my life for granted. How much can change in an instant. If my deepest wishes and prayers are answered...my children will live long happy lives. And one day they will not want me around so much. I will have all the free time in the world then to check my email and read my books.
So...that being said. I am off today. Off to enjoy the sun with my precious boys. Off to get a frozen yogurt and eat in the park. Off to make memories instead of preserve them. Off to play pirates.
love and hugs
If I owe you an email regarding how to templates etc...I promise I will get to them tonight.